sometimes I wonder what my trigger for anxiety is
We havent quite figured that out yet.
and then I realise its everything
and I think this is when I’m realising my mental state is crumbling at a speed faster than I can repair.
it used to be something that i thought I made up
but now I’m realising how real this is, and has been and its the scariest thing I’ve ever dealt with.
I hate everything
I envy everyone
I’m going to die angry and alone and I hate myself for it
I fucking suck
i wish i was never made
I feel better.
Went to the zoo, I’m exhausted.
I should work out more.
I want to sleep
I also have to make a birthday present for T.
SO TIRES ITS ONLY 5:50 AND I DESPRITLY WANT CHOCOLATTTTTEEEEEEEEEE.
MAY go to the dollor store >.>
OR JUST HOT CHOCOLATE???????????
I’m sorry but when you tell someone you’re leaving at 9am and you text the person at 9:45 saying you aren’t ready to leave yet to pick them up don’t be suprised if that person wants to rip your head off your neck.
I AM SO FRUSTRATED.
Be punctual people. I’ll respect you a hell of a lot more.
This is my first entry.
This is my diary blog.
I won’t tell you who i am, i might even change peoples names. I don’t even know if anyone will ever read this, but this is my life.
I just want a place to write